Sage advice from my dear friend Michelle.
I'm finding that I need to stop and breathe a lot more these days. Today our dossier was officially submitted in Sofia's home country and now the big wait begins. In about 10-14 days, we will be given our SDA (State Department of Adoptions) appointment and we will need to be in Sofia's country on that date to officially begin the adoption process. Our state side facilitator said to be prepared to travel as soon as April 12th-20th!!! Oh my...BREATHE...
There is so much to do between now and then. Not to mention, the normal day to day events of our busy household. I'm immediately feeling the guilt of having to leave our children behind for 3 weeks and then another 2 weeks after that. Of course, Mateo, our middle child, is having a HUGE Spring Celebration at his preschool on April 23rd and it's probably very likely we will be out of the country. It just KILLS me. I will make sure he is FULLY supported by his Nana and Grandpa and our close friends so he knows he is loved on that special day if we have to miss it. And I will make sure the event is well documented with photos and video. I'm tearing up right now thinking about it. BUT...we must get this process going with Sofia and it is totally out of our hands now so if her country says "Be HERE on THIS day"...we will be there.
Don't even get me started on the fact that I will be leaving Joaquin, our baby behind as well as Diego, our oldest. Joaquin won't even know what hit him. He still nurses at night. We've never been apart for more than 24 hours. He's my velcro baby. Diego, he's a big boy but he's still very sensitive and loves his hugs and kisses from mama and his nightly stories with his papa. This is going to be so hard on ALL of us. GOD BLESS my mom and dad who have volunteered to watch all the boys while we are away. They are the closest thing to us so I know our boys will be in the best hands. And we will call on our good friends and neighbors to help out here and there so even my parents can get a break. Thank you in advance to "our village". We couldn't do this without you.
But then I think of this little baby girl who has NEVER known the love of a parent or grandparent and that is the saddest thing of all. I cannot WAIT to meet her, hold her and tell her she will never be alone again. She is about to find out that an entire community of people is waiting for her to come home. Oh she is so lucky and loved! My stateside facilitator reminded me that this Mother's Day will be a very special one because Sofia will be well on her way to coming home to us! Oh what a beautiful thought.
So, for now I will just continue to BREATHE and prepare and make my lists and start packing and start gathering all the paperwork and start making the plans for our kids and the cleaning and the organizing. It will all work out and it will all be worth it in the end.